Stressed

I've been pretty stressed lately, mostly because my parents won't get off of my ass about school. I have all passing grades and am doing pretty well, but I'm grounded for not doing well in school. I don't ge it.

Her

I know that plenty of people talk about that one girl in their blogs, so I'm going to do it too. There's this girl, I don't know if she notices me, but I obviously notice her. I'm a junior and i've had a huge crush on her since 9th grade. I have never had the balls to go up to her and talk to her. I'm just a big pussy, people are always giving me crap for that, they think it's pretty funny, but I don't. One of these days I will talk to her though. It was funny because one time in tech theater, I was standing on a chair painting some rafters on the ceiling of a room that we had built. I wasn't aware that she was behind me, and I managed somehow to slip and eat shit falling off of the chair, right onto my face, and when I got up and turned around she was laughing her ass off at me. I just about died right then and there.

This Weekend

This weekend could have been a lot better, but I can't complain, there's nothing to ever do, it's always so boring. It ends up being one of those boring times where everything and everything that somebody suggests doesn't sound fun at all. So here I sit now typing on the computer when I know that somewhere something very interesting is happening but I have no idea that it is.

SO

So this morning, I hung out at home most of the morning because it was wednesday, and I didn't have to be to shool until 8:45. When I left I just cruised nice and slow to school in no hurry, pulled into the parking lot and parked. That's when I opened my trunk and realized that my back pack wasn't there, I had left it at home!!
So I jumped back into my car and put my foot to the floor and made it home and back in 5 minutes, a record time. Granted it was a really stupid thing to do, but I got to class right as she was taking attendance, and she didn't even bother to give me a tardy. Lucky me.

What?

I don't understand what's wrong with people
something is wrong with their heads
not naming anyone in particular

They don't understand
what they are doing
they are hurting my brother

He doesn't deserve it
but they don't care

Why

For some reason
i don't understand
nothing seems to be working
for my upper hand
life is like a box of chocolates
so i've heard
but the way i see it
sometimes it's just one big turd

you know what i mean
it's not absurd
i'm not the only person
or am i being heard

Today

the sun shone
people
walking
talking
just like any other day
something doesn't seem right
can feel it
like a boulder in the bottom of my stomach
depressing
walking out to my car
the feeling lifts a little
cell phone rings

voice in distress on the other line

...death